A sibling’s crime

A couple years a ago my sibling had been convicted of molesting my two children, hes spending the next 10 years in jail. About a year later I had a knock at my door during a dinner party with friends, it was the police. They wanted to look at my computers and any other computer equipment that I had, I handed over everything, they said they were looking for a Dell computer which was owned by my sibling and that I didn’t have. Although they did get a computer that my sibling had used and apparently downloaded images to. I was arrested for possession of child pornography I attempted to explain that the images weren’t mine that I had never even knew they were there they wouldn’t listen. I was ordered to take a psycho-sexual evaluation. I thought this was my chance to prove that I was innocent, they sent me to the same evaluator a Dr. Surbeck (spelled wrong I’m sure). that my sibling went to, an obvious conflict of interest, I was assigned a conflict attorney due to the fact that the Public Defenders officer had defended my sibling they weren’t allowed to defend me as well it was a conflict of interest, although it was ok for the same so-called Doctor to perform the psycho-sexual eval. I pointed out to my “attorney that there was a conflict of interest with the evaluator but it was ignored. When I got the results of the Eval it said the most dreadful horribly biased opinions, obviously her decision was based off the results of my siblings eval. My “attorney told me i either accepted the plea for 90 day incarceration, 6 months home monitoring and 7 years probation along with 15 years registration or I was looking at 3-6 years prison. I chose the plea as anyone would.
Im now serving the last 30 days home monitoring. Im forced to take a group therapy, the facilitators intimidate, and insult us I was told that I have to submit to a polygraph and I will most likely fail which will get me kicked out of the group which is a probation violation, putting me in jail. In my opinion is entrapment, if I fail a test which ist even admissable in court gets me kicked out and they put me in jail for it. All for a test whcih is unreliable and unethical. When I attend the session they force everyone to admit to crimes weve never commited and they tell us if we dont we will be removed from the group, or that we will fail the polygraph with the same result.
After the 90 days in jail I had a job lined up that Ive worked at for the last 2 years, I was told that all I need to do is get a letter from my employers and there wouldnt be a problem, I was denied my right to work by my probation officer, he stated that I couldnt work there because he was unsure of my access to minors, I work at a seasonal rensissance faire in the pubs ( the District attorney granted a delayed report date so I could finish up the season, the Judge allowed it) yet he wont, I contacted my attorney who did nothing. I also informed my P.O. that I attend church on Sundays, that was also denied. (This is while Im on the monitor) Now Ive been refused the right to work and religous liberty, which is against my constitutional rights, can I get help somewhere ….no none.
Im off the monitor in 20 soms days. I was asked if I would be going to work at the Faire for the last 3 weekends of the faire. I stated I wasnt sure I was told I need to ask permission from the therapy group facilitators, Im not on home monitoring, Im not in jail, yet they want me to ask permission to work, to go to dinner with family, to go to church. If I refuse this so-called therapy stated that I refuse to abide by the treatment of the therapy and I will be removed from the group….A violation of probation and a one way ticket to jail. They are bullying, intimidating and blackmailing me to do as they say, to run my life and theres nothig I can do about it.
I so want someone to help me but who? Ive never hurt anyone in my life in fact Ive been an EMT for over 15 years (which was revoked) all Ive ever done is help people, this is the first time I cant help myself. All I want is to get past this and put my life back together and the people that are supposed to help people, ignores me.  How is that these people can put a person through hell and violate a persons right in the name of Justice and it ok?

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  1. I have been on probation for 2 years. Same thing as most all of these convictions they offer you a plea deal… They are playing the lets make a deal… but the stakes are high and they know they would not like to see these cases go to court as that would make the jury know about their overzealousness and how they will con and entice and lure there victim into this game of cat-n-mouse.

    Common sense says anyone will take a plea deal instead of going to jail weather they drop two charges or what they are in control and its pretty sad that one is given a plea deal instead of due process in matters like this entrapment scheme. When ensnared with the police in these matters they will do anything and everything to be little you, and so will the court systems, and the prosecuting attorney. They would want to know anything and everything about you.. they wouldn’t even trust their own grandmother.

    So like my p.o. says to me when I go see him: It is what it is….. And I have told him it is what it is for right now. I didn’t have a good lawyer only a public pretender that said you know how the jury will look at these cases. Well I don’t know how the jury will look at these cases given the truth, the whole truth and not half truths….. but that scared me as it would anyone at the given time that was facing a possible jail or prison term.

    By the way, I was caught in an internet sting, didn’t send any sexy pic’s, didn’t ask for any sex, only ask that person if they would like to meet me. During the encounter down there got a call from the person and ask if I was coming and they said they called to change the location, well right than I asked to back out but was persuaded to meet anyway since it was in public and they said what could happen.

    So one is duped into all this and even going to these classes which you are suppose to know from high school studies about and good conduct and that is about what it all boils down to. I was the only person that never had a real victim in my class all the others had some victim… Mine was internet deception and in an adult chat room, can you imagine that.
    In the end their is nothing to fear but fear itself. Now I am standing up for not only myself but if I can stand up for someone that was entrapped into all this, I will and I have written letters to senators, and the like and will keep on as I was wrong in taking my plea deal.

    Now all you people that were bullied and persuaded and enticed into taking this plea deal without proven fact without a doubt shamble, you should all stand up for your rights and not be a pussy about it. Do ever thing you can to make it right but than say wait a minute I am a human being and don’t control me like your my master. The police will control you and the system if you let them so be wise as they are wolves in sheep’s clothing.

  2. Thad

    Once pornography is downloaded onto your computer you are guilty until proven innocent, as with any sex crime. No one wants to go to court no matter how innocent they may be.

    Someone needs to contact a person in a third world country and give them email addresses to governors, senators, supreme court justices, judges, applet court judges, and crooked investigators. Have them send them emails that have a generic statement like I have attached a study on the recidivism of sex offenders. When they open it they find a study and at the bottom you add a note and here are the pictures you requested. Have 50 to 100 pornographic pictures.

    Then have this person send emails out to prosecutors with the email addresses of the official.

    As you know, once it is on your computer you have to accept a plea bargain. A ruthless prosecutor is not going to care if the accused person is an official. If enough of them got in trouble, believe me, the laws would change.

  3. Hi fellow “sex offender”. FYI… My website won’t be active for probably a couple of weeks. I went through hell trying to live a double life… “the good guy” and “the bad guy”. “The bad guy” had a sexual addiction of “indecent exposure”. I went to more than 60 expensive sessions with traditionally educated clinical psychologists, and I never got a damned bit of good from them, in helping me lessen the urges I kept on having. That was over around a 30 year period. I was convicted of it 4 different times, and so I’ll be going to my grave a “sex offender”. HERE’S THE GOOD NEWS! For the last 20 years I’ve been completely free of that sexual addiction, because I developed and taught myself, “The Psychology and Therapy of Personal Honesty and Personal Responsibility”. And I’ve spent the last 25 passionate years studying the ACTUAL cause and effects of human feelings and human experiences… as well as the cause and effects of human behavior and human decision making… from a non traditional psychological masterpiece called, “A Course in Miracles” [ACIM]. And now it’s like, ‘I’m all dressed up with no place to go’. I absolutely can help you and I really want to help you! I can also help your brother who is now in prison. Take a listen to the following YouTube presentation… “Non violent, non forcing child sexual (so called) molestation can’t matter”. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKGL32LMQfg It’s had over 180 hits, and only one person commented. She told me I was crazy and that I should go kill myself. (I’ve laughed about that, ever since she wrote that.) When I told her I would kill myself, if she could use facts to refute anything I had said… she just ignored me and even took my comments off her YouTube place to receive comments. I’ve tried in vain, over 230 times to get any kind of ‘back and forth’ on the factual truthful information I send to both legal people and way more, to traditionally educated clinical psychologists. In fact when I file my legal petition to be heard, I’m going to demand that those idiots be put on “house arrest”… until they finally line up cause and effect, when it comes to human feelings and human experiences. The “flavor” of the 25 years of passionately studying what traditional psychology doesn’t study at all, is… “People’s minds are not disturbed by events, but by their (own) judgments on events” [Epictetus, 101AD]. Think for a few minutes, that we had all fallen for the idea, that when someone fondles the hair on a child’s head, that the child is profoundly violated and abused. My point is… if we’re stupid enough to believe that… we’ve already believed something equally stupid… that falls in the same factual and truthful category… that certain non violent, non forcing human sexual activities cause people to be mentally and emotionally harmed. And other non violent, non forcing human sexual activities don’t cause any mental or emotional harm at all. The bigger point is not “who’s the perpetrator?”… but where the does supposed “victim” go to get relief from the terrible lie, that “events are causing experiences”… when traditional clinical psychology is thinking in terms of “problematic events” instead of “problematic interpretations”, ABOUT anything at all.
    Here’s a YouTube address that talks about my legal petition to be heard… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKGL32LMQfg You’ll probably have to highlight the address and click the YouTube option to get the that presentation. I just found RSOL. But I hope to god, that these people who want changes in sex offend laws, are objective enough to notice truth and fact, with the materials I’ve gathered together over the last 25 years. I guess I’ll find out soon. If you don’t have my email address, then comment on my YouTube space and I’ll get together with you, over the phone. I live in AZ. I’m just now getting this material “out there”. And I also hope to god, that the police don’t charge into my apartment and plant some drugs, just to get rid of me, and the truthful and honest materials I’m putting forth. Sincerely, Jerry Beal. What’s your name?

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